I mean i find myself needing a Historical Reason for all the years spent Slaughtering, raping, and defacing Personas and traditions that would have properly prepared me for ego, id, and alter-states-of-consciousness!!!!
It was jealous clergymen who displaced the proper way to “feel” for others….this is an energy-war NOWADAYS….NOT de-evolve their ways of life–because it’s working! (it was at one time, just fine)!!!!!
WEAKEN our “savage, yet Powerful–“I mean, we never even struggled with emotions back then, as Aboriginees/Natives…now I can’t build a routine to jog every day because I LACK THE DAMNED Confidence/motivation, and I’m only 28, and I love myself and really do try to take care of myself!
and I feel like a dying, the ONLY LIVING flower within all this forgotten-folliage, …Slain-from-over-wildcrafting (“ABUSING”; AND it’s this Malice that fries my Asexual-bodice-of-potential-herbal-remedies-in-the-waking…
the Sadism of religious sanctity surfaces after the idiot-role of accepting and tolerating the illogic in mass-treating+mass-generalization to Reciprocity in that Gratification Process into old Age…..Humans (from all backgrounds), HISTORICALLY and majority-rules that GLOBALLY, we have exploited, Biology…..D.N.A.=NONREPLICATIVE even in twins I remember hearing in 10th grade biology class with Mr. Hunt….so how did we find the “Cure” for each and every negative moment of our UNIQUE and deorigined lives? Oh, we must chose with those STATS that are “off-the-charts.”
Paradox, even if i changed my daily rituals into Military-like calories burned, lessons learned, and friends made–I’d never free myself from Twilight ZONE of “Health! (…?)”
the way ecology is breaking up, compartmentalizing, and always being scientifically classified–I should go in for some botox treatments to YouthNize (no pun intended) my ONLY 28 YR OLD LADY SELF, before I have to die in the process of FINALLY grasping what success feel like.
the Routines, Rules, and Regulations of Society, on a HUMANE level, regrets that, ONCE, “precedential,” business-opportunity for “Substance Abuse” to legitimize it’s victim-stigma–
AND FACE IT, fuck compassion it isn’t real, anymore…now, exterior forces, like Pot; now, THOSE are the RELIABLE, EFFICIENT, and RESOURCFUL aide to my VULGARITY–my NORMALCY!
Just Go through Treatment–it’s all religious originated, anyways…just like the dependencies-to-health-care!!! Anytime I try to follow, I’m pining, for What I use to Heal, etc…NOT what Doctors say is right, or even what STATISTICS glorify.
I swear I spend more energy self-defending How I take care of Myself, physiologically, than goddamned domesticated animals do!
There is a proper, efficient, and longevity-process that makes ‘Using!’ a ritual, a routine, a rote, a “center;”….. NOT A DEVIANCE! IM NOT gonna die without giving DeadCulture a Voice, again–must be the Avatar-attribute in me that will never forget the hell those “reformed” Original-peoples had to Endure just to feel stupid and DEJA-VUED..like I know I used to raise myself another way, a more ECOFRIEDNLY and respectable way before the Monotony of Corporate American Society Hits.
Our only Civil Right, I believe, is Literally through that very, American hobby of “Exploitation…” I will leave an artifact of me behind, and I choose Not to Know when it will Happen for us, but it has to happen soon…..will someone(some-ppl) help me carry the stones predecessors feverishly “passed-on,” because I haven’t even contemplated what the market will martyr me into, now…here goes Competition (always hated it, it gave me physical upset stomach, urges to pee (even if only for like one second!) and poop at the worst-convenient-times like at my soccer games! when I am supposed to be PSYCHING myself up, I was sedating stomach aches and avoiding diarrhea, or leaks, OR SOME KIND OF PHYSICAL PAIN at 16 years old!!! IN THIS GODDAMNED FREE, intelligent, and STRONG (–supposedly,) Citizens of the United States.
Let’s ensure that doctrines of ANCIENT times don’t burn up in civilian-started wars…Let’s Bear Reasons why Karma should, also, accept and tolerate FATE and CHOOSE to self-reprogramme, this materialistically-valued, and abhorred-“ghetto” of what government educates us as Maslow’s Hierarchy/Pyramid of basic needs; Save the Avenging, save that heroism to Disney…let’s Evolve! CONTACT ME to BRAINSTORM and network in the Right direction to make this Nomadic Community Reality!